Love Hurts?

That time, we used to be happy
Well, I thought we were, But the truth was that
you had been longing to leave me, Not daring to tell me
On that precious night watching the lake vaguely conscious
You said: Our story was ending. Now I'm standing here
No one to wipe away my tears, No one to keep me warm
And no one to walk along with, No one to make me feel
No one to make me while, OH! What am I to do?
I'm standing here alone, It doesn't seem so clear to me
What am I supposed to do about this burning, heart of mine
OH! What am I to do? Or how should I react?
OH! Tell me please!
The rain was killing the last days of Summer
You had been killing my last breath of love
Since a long time ago
I still don't think I am gunna make it through another love story
You took it all away from me
And there I stand, I knew I was gonna be the .....
The one left behind.
But still I'm watching the lake vaguely conscious
And I know---My life is ending
–

Once, I saw my friend cried over a lost love. Looking at her, I do understand how much pain the she’s been thru. This whole thing scenario makes me think really hard actually. What makes the love of two people breaks when they still adore and love each other?

When comes to women, when they love someone, they will love that “someone” with all of their heart and he’s mean the world to her.

Men, always think that the women can handle the separation if they think the partner is strong, but, one thing they always forgot, when she’s strong, that doesn’t mean that she don’t have any feelings.

What does a relationship means actually? Some relationship may starts from friendship and somehow, somewhere the love just start to grow. Who’s to blame? It is true that love is blind. But, are we? I guess I am not alone when I make this statement, when two people in love, everything is so wonderful and nothing can goes wrong. Isn’t it? People can get crazy when not hear their partner’s voice for even a day, start feeling miserable if they start to hurt their partner’s feeling.. (even unintentionally), try very hard to make a phone call no matter how busy they were just to ease themselves from their hectic world.. and so many things that people are willing to do.

[ I didn’t understand the reason..
That my heart was beating like a drum..
I didn’t understand the meaning..
Then you opened up my eyes to..
A crazy little thin called love… a crazy thing called love.. ]

Sometimes, somehow it makes me wonder, when something goes wrong, even if they decide to take one step back, why does it look like they are taking 10 steps back? Suddenly they manage to live without their partner and skipped all the things that they shared before?

There are people who being left by the partner just like that and end up wondering around.. and keep on asking ourselves..” where did I go wrong?” , “Why me?” , “Why all this happen to me?” .. and the questions that remain unanswered will keep on haunting them until they are tired (god knows until when exactly..).

And they are couples that end up being friends, but, of course things are definitely going to be awkward. They try to act like what two friends usually does or talk about and try not to say something that will trigger or recall any good memories that they shared together. That of course the big NO of “I Love You’s” and “ Miss You’s”. But, does it work? How far can they hide the feelings inside them?

[ If tomorrow never comes, will she know how much I loved her..
Did I try in every way to show her every day.. That she’s my only one..
And if my time on earth were through..
and she must face the world without me..
Is the love I gave her in the past ..
Gonna be enough to last..
If tomorrow never comes
-Ronan Keating “If Tomorrow Never Comes” ]

Even worst, if they get back together and have something they call “relationship” just to get a proper closure. Couldn’t live the world of guilt leaving the partner and expected the partner cool-off slowly. At this stage, they will keep on hurting each other feelings.. (without they realizing it or not). The cool and cold behavior, the I-don’t-need-you attitude and try not to create any sweetness in what they call as “relationship”… that of course includes of no more the feeling of comforting each other, no sweet words.. and less care.
If they are not emotionally related, what in the world they call it a relationship anyway?
Even a best friend can do a better job than that.. ;)

[ Now I live with the regret..
That my true feelings for them never were revealed
So I made a promise to myself..
To say each day how much she means to me..
And avoid that circumstance…
Where there’s no second chance to tell her how I feel…
So, tell someone that you love.. just what you’re thinking of…
If tomorrow never comes…
- Ronan Keating “ If Tomorrow Never Comes” ]


It’s true..”cinta tak semestinya bersatu”.. but still.. “love is forever”..

And so it is...

It has been 2 days since my last blog. Friday, not really in a good mood to write anything.. and Saturday? Erghhh.. had a really bad weekend.. so many things happened and plus my very very bad headache and stiffed shoulder. Last night I end up sleeping with those white patches a.k.a koyok all around my neck and shoulder. (wish I can paste it to my heart too.. will it work to heal a broken heart?? Hehehe.. just kidding! )

And today, slightly a better day for me. No dizzy, no stiff shoulder.. and I end up sitting here infront of my computer for more than 5 hours already. Nothing much that I do, just browsing and downloading musics, do some readings, and update some of my “writings”.

While browsing, I found this one song sang by Damien Rice – Blower’s Daughter. Oh mannn… so lah wonderful his voice!.. Not to forget, the music..- the guitar and violin. Voila!! I bet if there is a man playing guitar infront of me singing me that song with that sooooo beautiful voice.. I will definately melt!! (Huhuhu.. tak kuat iman sungguh!) . Dunno why I fond to a man + guitar.. Hmm.. to tell you something, I’ve tried to learn to play guitar long time ago.. but, hancusss!! What can I say.. no talent sihh!!.. All I know is.. I am good in sports.. but not into musical instruments.. (heyyy.. at least I know how to appreciate good music! :P ) Anyway, I do listen to any song that is good and nice to hear, regardless it’s Ballad, R&B, Hip Hop, Soul or even Pop.. I don’t really care. I know some of us will choose for good looking or beautiful singer without taking an account of their talent. But, it’s not fair isn’t it? Be such judgmental by the looks.

Yan, I know still owe you to write something about “kekasih gelap” kan? Nantilah, whenever I have an idea to write about it, I will kay? Hmm.. it’s kinda sensitive issue actually, and will try to write as general as it can be.. (nanti ada orang terasa pulak.. ;) )
But seriouslah.. how come you don’t know what is “kekasih gelap” means??? Example paling senang..if you couple with our “ Mr. Pandan Indah”… ha tu la kekasih gelap you!..

Chow!

Lessons Learned

There's some things that I regret,
Some words I wish had gone unsaid,
Some starts,
That had some better endings,
Been some bad times I've been through,
Damage I cannot undo.
Some things,I wish I could do all all over again,
But it don't really matter,
Life gets that much harder,
It makes you that much stronger,
Oh, some pages turned,
Some bridges burned,
But there were,
Lessons learned.

And every tear that had to fall from my eyes,
Everyday I wonder how I'd get through the night,
Every change, life has thrown me,
I'm thankful, for every break in my heart,
I'm grateful, for every scar,
Some pages turned,
Some bridges burned,
But there were lessons learned.

There's mistakes that I have made,
Some chances I just threw away,
Some roads,I never should have taken,
Been some signs I didn't see,
Hearts that I hurt needlessly,
Some wounds,
That I wish I could have one more chance to mend,
But it don't make no differance,
The past can't be rewritten,
You get the life you're given,
Oh, some pages turned,
Some bridges burned,
But there were,
Lessons learned.

And every tear that had to fall from my eyes,
Everyday I wonder how I'd get threw the night,
Every change, life has thrown me,
I'm thankful, for every break in my heart,
I'm grateful, for every scar,
Some pages turned,
Some bridges burned,
But there were lessons learned.
And all the things that break you,
Are the things that make you strong,
You can't change the past.
Cause it's gone,
And you just gotta move on,
Because it's all
Lessons learned.

And every tear that had to fall from my eyes,
Everyday I wonder how I'd get through the night,
From Every change, life has thrown me,
I'm thankful, for every break in my heart,
I'm grateful, for every scar,
Some pages turned,
Some bridges burned,
But there were lessons learned,
Oh, some pages turned,
Some bridges burned,
But there were lessons learned,
Lessons learned.
Lessons learned."

.....may we cherish every sweet moments that we had together..

Sometimes Life's So Bitter Sweet..

When i was browsing for new songs to add in my playlist, i heard this one song that i really want to dedicate to a friend of mine.. (and myself?? ;) ). It has such a beautiful lyric sang by Country song singer, Carrie Underwood - "Starts with Goodbye" .

p/s: remember, the "loser" wins.. the gainer.. Chillis! ;)


Starts with Goodbye

I was sitting on my doorstep,
I hung up the phone and it fell out of my hand,
But I knew I had to do it,
And he wouldn't understand,
So hard to see myself without him,
I felt a piece of my heart break,
But when you're standing at a crossroad,
There's a choice you gotta make.

[Chorus:]
I guess it's gonna have to hurt,
I guess I'm gonna have to cry,
And let go of some things I've loved,
To get to the other side,
I guess it's gonna break me down,
Like falling when you try to fly,
It's sad, but sometimes moving on with the rest of your life,
Starts with goodbye.

I know there's a blue horizon,
Somewhere up ahead,
just waiting for me,
Getting there means leaving things behind,
Sometimes life's so bitter sweet.

[Chorus:]
I guess it's gonna have to hurt,
I guess I'm gonna have to cry,
And let go of some things I've loved,
To get to the other side,
I guess it's gonna break me down,
Like falling when you try to fly,
It's sad, but sometimes moving on with the rest of your life,
Starts with goodbye.

Time, time heals,
The wounds that you feel,
Somehow, right now.

[Chorus:]
I guess it's gonna have to hurt,
I guess I'm gonna have to cry,
And let go of some things I've loved
To get to the other side,
I guess it's gonna break me down,
Like falling when you try to fly,
It's sad, but sometimes moving on with the rest of your life,
Starts with goodbye,

I guess I'm gonna have to cry,
And let go of some things I've loved,
To get to the other side,
Starts with goodbye,
The only way you try to find,
It's sad but,
Moving on with the rest of your life,
Starts with goodbye,
Na na na na na na na.